Hello, my name is michelle.
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Friday, June 01, 2007

4:22 PM -

1) smoked b4 [x ]
2) drink alcohol b4 [x]
3) slept with someone of the opposite sex (not have sex) [ ]
4) slept with someone of the same sex [x]
5) gotten into any fights [ ]
6) kissed someone of the opposite sex b4 [ ]
7) kissed someone of the same sex b4 [x]
8) had someone in your room of the opposite sex [x]
9) scold vulgarities [x]
10) bought porn [ ]

total: 6

11) take drugs b4 [ ]
12) hate going to the doctors [x]
13) lied to your parents [x]
14) lied to a friend [x]
15) sneak out of the house [x]
16) done something illegal [ ]
17) cut yourself [x]
18) hurt someone [x]
19) wished someone to die [x]
20) seen someone die [x]
total:8

21) missed curfew [x]
22) stayed out all night [x]
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself [ ]
24) been to a therapist [ ]
25) been to rehab [ ]
26) dyed your hair [x]
27) received a ticket [ ]
28) been in a wreck [x ]
29) been to a club [x]
30) been to a bar [ x]
total:6

31) been to a wild party [ ]
32) seen the Mardi Gras [ ]
33) had a fight [ ]
34) had a spring break in Florida [ ]
35) sniffed anything [ ]
36) wore black nail polish before [ ]
37) worn wrist bands [x]
38) wore t-shirts with band names [ ]
39) wore black eyeliner [ ]
40) own a 50 cent CD [ ]
total:1

41) hugged someone of the opposite sex [ ]
42) hugged someone of the same sex [x]
43) gone out with someone of the opposite sex [x]
44) gone out with someone of the same sex [x]
45) stole something [x]
46) been too drunk to remember anything [x]
47) blacked out [ ]
48) fainted [ ]
49) had a crush on your neighbour [ ]
50) had someone else snuck into your room [ ]
TOTAL: 5

51) snuck into someone else's room [x]
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex [x]
53) had gone and watched movies with friends [x]
54) dry humped someone [ ]
55) been called a sl*t [ ]
56) called someone a sl*t[ ]
57) installed speakers in your car [ ]
58) broke a mirror [ ]
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house [ ]
60) brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush [x]
TOTAL: 4

61) consider Mac,Dr Dre, e40 or MistahFab your favorite rapper [ ]
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters [ ]
63) going out with friends to the mall [x]
64) skipped school [ ]
65) had an eating disorder [x]
66) had hurt yourself b4 [x]
67) gone to court [ ]
68) walked out of a restaurant without paying [ ]
69) caught something on fire [ ]
70) lied about your age [ x]
TOTAL: 4

71) owned an apartment [ ]
72) cheated on yourboyfriend/girlfriend [x]
73) cheated with someone [ ]
74) got in trouble with the police [ ]
75) talked to a stranger [x]
76) hugged a stranger [ x ]
77) kissed a stranger [ ]
78) rode in the car with a stranger [ ]
79) been sexually harassed []
80) been verbally harassed [x]
TOTAL: 4

81) met face to face with someone you met online [ ]
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight [ ]
83) talked on the phone for more than 6hours [x]
84) watched TV for 12 hours straight [x]
85) been to a fair [x]
86) been called a bad influence [x]
87) been cursed [ ]
88) prank called someone [ ]
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex [ ]
90) cheated on a minor test eg.spelling, class test etc. [x]
TOTAL: 5

91) cheated on homework [x]
92) held hands with someone of the same sex [x]
93) wants to be dead [x]
94) cuts yourself b4 [x]
95) hated yourself before [x]
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you [x]
97) had a crush on someone[x]
TOTAL: 7

ahaha. results! i am 50% bad influence. haha. i am a good girl! yay! okay, i was being asked to do this quiz by BECCA and BAOYI(:
and i got lesser pecentage than them. haha. i win(:

Thursday, May 31, 2007

11:33 AM -

the passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. she paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg.

it had been a year since susan, thirty-four, became blind. due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightness, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. once a fiercely independent woman, susan now felt condemned by this terrible twist of fate to become a powerless, helpless burden to everyone around her. "how could this have happened to me?" she would plead, her heart knotted with anger. but no matter how much she cried or ranted or prayed, she knew the painful truth- her sight was never going to return.

a cloud of depression hung over susan's once optimistic spirit. just getting through each day was an exercise in frustration and exhausation. and all she had to cling was her husband Mark.

Mak was an air force officer and he loved susan with all his heart. when she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again. Mark's millitary background had trained him well to deal with sensitive situations, and yet he knew this was the most difficult battle he would ever face.
finally, susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? she used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. at first, this comforted susan and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the sightest task. sonn, however, Mark realised that this arrangement wasn't working- it was hectic, and costly. susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. but just the thought of mentioning it to her made him cringe. she was still so fragile, so angry. how would she react?

just as Mark predicted, susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again. "i am blind!" she responsed bitterly. "how am i supposed to know where i'm going? i feel like you're abandoning me."

Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. he promised susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it.

and that is exactly what happened. for two solid weeks, Mark, millitary uniform and all, accompained susan to and from work each day. he taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. he helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat. he made her laugh, even on those not-so-good days when she would trip exiting ths bus, or drop her briefcase full of papers on the aisle floor.

each morning they made the journey together, and Mark would take a cab back to his office. although this routine was even more costly and exhausting than the previous one, mark knew it was only a matter of time before susan would be able to ride the bus on her own. he believed in her, in the susan he used to know before she'd lost her sight, who wasn't afraid of any challenge and who would never, ever quit.

finally, susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms aound mark, her temporary bus riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, and his love. she said goodbye, and for the first time, they went their sperate ways.

monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday... each day on her own went perfectly, and susan had never felt better. she was doing it! she was going to work all by herself.

on friday morning, susan took the bus to work as usual. as she was paying her fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "boy, i sure envy you."

susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. after all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? curious, she asked the driver, "why do you say that you envy me?"

the driver responsed, "it must feel so good to be taken care of and protected like you are."

susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and asked again, "what do you mean?"

the driver answered, "you know, every morning for the past week, a fine looking gentlemen in a millitary uniform has been standing across the corner watching you when you get off the bus. he makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building. the he blows you a kiss, gives you a litte salute and walks away. you are one lucky lady."

tears of happiness poured down susan's cheeks. for although she couldn't physically see him, and she had always felt Mark's presence. she was lucky, so lucky, for he ha given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there had been darkness.

aren't they sweet? aww. isn't it nice to have someone watching over you silently in everything, anywhere you are? (:
i would like to be there for you too, remember? i am willing to watch over you no matter how tired or exhausted i am.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

12:51 PM -

it was a silence, all along. breaking down to the last moment.

had english oral prelim today. everything went on fine. thank God. i didn't catch enough sleep last night and i am afraid that i could not focus. but, at that instance, i was quite awake. ahaha. got back that oral grade. and i pass(: but still, happy. but not contented with it. yeah, you can see me motivating myself. i am pushing myself to a certain extent now. and after my 'N' s , i can be wild as much as i want. ahaha.